6:43 p.m. - 2003-09-16
babble part 2
i'm sitting here in the office at home and i'm on the laptop... work is running on my PC and I didn't feel like surfing on someone else's watch (i'm sure they track where we go when we're on the VPN) so, i popped open the laptop and here i am.
i'm feeling like writing. wishing i had all the time in the world to just sit here and bang out more and more thoughts on the past. wishing that i could clear my head of a thousand subjects,s ome worth babbling about most not but still stuff that's floating around in my head.
it's easier to write when no one else is around which is probably why i am so productive in my journal when my boss isn't there in the mornign or my coworkers are out. things like that. right now, i'm the only one home (though i'm waiting anxiously for Him to get out of class so we can go shopping :) ) and so, i felt like writing.
i'm feeling philosophical again. i suppose it happens from time to time and is especially rampant when my sleep hours are sufficiently depleted. like i said earlier (last entry) i slept well last night but it's just not been enough to catch up from this weekend. i'm so envious of those folks who have been taking two weeks off lately. they suck!
thinking a lot about all the things we have planned right now. the day trips and such. the selfish part of me is trying to find another one so that He and i can go alone together. it's always different when you go with other people and i guess i'm just seeking some activities that He and i can do together without the family. those will become more important next year i suspect. i'm looking forward to the Big E though. it's such a good time and i'm already working on my "must have foods" list in my head because everyone knows that half the fun of the Big E is eating all that scrumptious food! YUM! i pondered for a moment getting an eclair over a cannoli at La Fontina (or however it's spelled) but then i promptly clunked myself over the head and tried to figure out what could possibly be wrong with me! give up the BEST cannoli's ever? HELLS NO! so perhaps a cannoli there and an eclair to go ;)
i'm still trying to decide whether or not i bring my amethyst bracelet. i should and at least have Michael fix it so that should i decide to wear it again i can. i'm so dumb though if i'd have thought about it beforehand i could have emailed them before they left for the Big E and asked them to get more amethyst hearts! argh! i have a few that are seriously weathered and if they could be replaced i'd have retired the old ones to someplace safe in my jewelry box and enjoyed the new ones on the bracelet. i guess we will see. they haven't carried semi-precious stones since i bought the amethyst bracelet so i'm not hopeful but at least they can fix mine. i think i'll have him put new little gold balls in though. mine are beat to hell.
i think i'm purposely avoiding philosophizing because i'm afraid to get into it and then get severely distracted by work or by Him coming home. i figure that philosophy stores well and so, it can stay floating around in my head for some time before going foul. or perhaps philosophy is like a twinkie and will just last forever ;)
*looking at her workstuff that's still running...* i'm thinking that this stuff is going to take forever tomorrow... great joy... sucks all the excitement out of the day. let's just hope the damned commute is better tomorrow than it was today. i'm not betting on it though. and thursday could go either way with the hurricane creeping on up the coast that day. and i wonder what Friday will look like too...
i'm thinking that tomorrow i'm going to stop at Costco and get some stuff for the office and some bottled water for us (we're out, not because of the storm, though that's convenient) maybe even pick up some cold cuts, more lettuce... these things just in case the storm does get down and nasty up here. right now it doesn't appear to be te case but i suppose i have about as good a chance at guessing the weather than the next guy... the weather guys certainly seem to be spinning the weather roullette wheel lately!
my gym high is wearing off and i'm starting to get slightly drowsy again. blah! it sucks like this though because i'd much rather take a nap than do anything sitting here but it's only by the moment that i think that way. it comes and goes... i drop off and wake up again... what fun!
i'm going to post this for now. my work stuff is almost ready for me to tweak the next environment so there will be more to watch soon...wheee!
