6:22 p.m. - 2003-10-03
two entries in one day... don't faint!
i was about to stroll away from my computer when i realized... i haven't really written anything of much substance all week... at least not to my recollection. i haven't really looked or anything so even if i had, i guess my brain has just been too busy to notice.
truly, i'm not trying to bitch but i've been off the wall busy at work again this week. at least this week didn't include the additional stress of databases crashing all over the place. that is a good thing. instead we get to deal with broken queries and new changes coming up for the december release, zombie processes and a whole host of other things i can't even begin to wrap my brain around at this point.
the short of the long is that even though i wanted to write on many occassions this week, i was banished to the cube farm and chained to that stuff we call work. heck, i didn't even send a lot of emails and consequently i owe a whole lot of people email! perhaps i'll get to it this weekend.
i haven't even wanted to LOOK at my computer when i get home at night. i'll sit down for a little while, do my routine check of a handful of sites and then, stare listlessly for a while before i decide i'm bored. lucky for me it seems He's the same way so, it hasn't turned out to be too much of a problem.
even now as i sit here with a minor dedication to putting something to the page i stop writing, remove my hands from the keyboard and start to snooze almost in my chair. i wonder if it's exhaustion (very well could be) or just a meditative state that's just happening at will. though i've become quite adept at falling asleep without truly falling asleep... happens sometimes in the car... but you all didn't want to know that ;) usually when that starts happening in the car i try to find ways to entertain myself or i'll stop now and again when it's really bad. i'm not allowed to die per His rules and now even Don says i need to give a two week notice ;)
i turned on AIM for the first time all week today. i near immediately went away. i'll probably shut it down when i leave the room. i just don't want to hear the stupid sound, and i still don't really want to talk to a whole lot of people. i'm still longing for Tara-land. can't bring friends there, it's a solo trip. but i need to talk to Kristy at the very least to make sure plans for the munch are still as they were planned.
i should have taken a nap. i could use one... of course, then i wouldn't sleep tonight. gods i'm so sick of being tired. i can't wait unit work smooths over and life can return to some semi-normal state.
but enough for now. at least i managed to squeeze out a little about what's in my head. in other thoughts are things like the possibility of BR being cancelled and the idiot residents/religious groups/politicians who are a bunch of nosey a$$holes for sticking their nose into other people's business... but anyway, that's a rant for later too.
bye for now.
