8:37 a.m. - 2003-10-06
ahh... Monday morning
i figured i'd give this journal a little go again and see if there's anything all that fantabulous to come out of my head. i'm not promising anything since i'm actually feeling very relaxed at the moment and i fully intend to enjoy it while it lasts.
i had my first yoga class ever yesterday. that's good stuff. tough, but good stuff indeed. i think i'm going to enjoy the new gym and the classes. i don't know if how much time i'll spend on the equipment for now. i have curves for that and i find that i'm lost when swimming among a sea of nautilis equipment with no greater mission on how to use it. i'm a classes kind of girl anyway. i think that's why curves works for me too sort of... it's like a group effort and people chat while working out usually. trouble being i needed the new gym membership too because i need more than just curves... i've hit the road block in my muscular development and i needed to jump start it.
so i went to WOW last week (Work Out World, for those who have no idea what WOW is or if you think it's the olestra chips) to pick up a schedule and get the skinny on the place. i went for a tour and listened to this woman boast all these fabulous things about the gym. it really is a nice place but at that point i wasn't ready to leap into anything. but of course, once she finished showing me the whole place she sat me down at the table and spouted membership plans and numbers at me, which i kept pushing off. then she went and got her managers because apparently they always do that and the manager tried to work me over into a membership and i remained unconvinced until she completely took away the initiation fee and made the payments 29.99 a month for the first year and 19.99 thereafter should i continue my membership. plus she gave me 10 days to decide whether or not i like the place and if i didn't in 10 days, i could get my money back.
that was last tuesday. i went to the gym on Saturday and tried the machines. they have a fabulous ab section but i was somewhat intimidated because it was my first time there and i have to get to know the equipment so i can stop looking like a dork and reading everything. i get one meeting with a personal trainer... i should set that up. perhaps then i'd have a plan and not look so clueless. then yesterday i went to yoga. i liked the yoga class and look forward to those at the very least. i want to try other classes like the samba class, hiphop jamz, and maybe even low impact latin which are all aerobic workouts. i think those sound fun and there's spin classes nearly everyday too :) woohoo! now i just have to decide how to chunk out my time between there and curves.
He's told me that i have to workout a minimum of 4 times a week, He doesn't care how or where so that's cool. this should make it easier with two options now because WOW is literally about 8 minutes from home via the highway. curves is on the way home from work and i make time at least twice a week for that already. now it's just a matter of deciding which classes i want to go to so i can rearrange my curves schedule if i have to.
i want Him to go to WOW with me sometimes but i don't know if that will happen or not. i have a free pass for Him to go with my some time that the manager gave me. i may just have Him come down and take the tour one night while i'm in class and then we can use the free pass afterwards to workout or He can use it that same day.
heh heh.. funny thought in my head just now... i was lighter when i was getting beatings in the beginning of our relationship... hehe.. maybe more beatings would help me get lighter again ;)
so yeah. Tara's all about the health/weight loss initative again for a while. we all know it's a cyclical pattern with me and that it will taper and then come back, taper and then come back. it's the pleasures of being me i suppose.
people.
yeah... i'm still somewhat anti-social but i'm starting to come around. i still wish that the world would disappear completely for about a week and leave Him and i alone. that's not a statement saying that anyone is being a particular pain in the arse or anything it's just a general feeling of wanting to get away from everything and everyone for a while so that a quiet peace could settle in more easily.
work isn't (so far anyway but it's only 8:54AM on Monday) seeming to be so bad this week but it depends on how many meetings and how many stupid people i'll be having to deal with this week. i'm working on having a more positive outlook than that though so i should probably rephrase that to "it depends on how many opportunities i'll have to work with people and new projects this week". i suppose i should have rephrased it the first time before i thought it the other way but i suppose small steps will lead to the larger ones ;)
talked to L yesterday. he called because he had bought new things for his computer and was having issues putting all the stuff in and having it all work properly. we got him back up and running and no time and i told him that instead of forking over that much moneyf or parts and software he'd have been better off buying a new system for less! i suggested he take a trip to CC and take a look if nothing else. at the very least he could return everything he had bought and buy a new PC with everything he needed in it already. i'm betting he'll probably stay with what he has. i don't envy him attempting the windows upgrade though. here's hoping it goes smoothly for him! ;) i'm still waiting for the financial statement from him so that i can send in our divorce papers... i hope he gets that done soon. he says he's going to just hasn't had time to finish he says.
when he does finally finish and send it to me i have to finish my own and then come up with $150 to send along with the paperwork to the courts. fun. i'm just glad it isn't going to cost me as much if not more to get divorced as it did to get married!
i should start compiling a list of things that i would have to change if i decide to change my name back to my maiden name. there's some chance that i'll do that, not because i'm unhappy with carrying "Richards" as a last name but more having to do with i hated giving up my maiden name to begin with. it's sort of a family pride sort of thing and since i can't be with or around them as much i'd like to carry the name again. it's just such a PAIN to get everything changed over (*note to self: another reason to hurry up and cancel the rest of those credit cards on the credit report!!*) and i have zero idea where the social security office is out here! oh wait. there's one in Quincy somewhere because He had to go there to get His when He was working out there.... hmmmm... well, we'll see. that's still a few months off. i wouldn't do it until after the divorce is final and junk anyway.
yesterday sort of zipped by. it wasn't as quiet and relaxing as most of my sunday's alone because i did go to that class which is smack in the middle of my day (11:30-12:30) so it disrupted some of the "normal" ryhtyhm of my Sunday. i'll just have to find a new schedule to work around. everyone will be shocked to know that now that i'm not stuck to the computer so much on Sundays that i actually enjoy lounging aroung in the living and even if i am doing my homework, i feel like i'm lazing about. it's good stuff. laundry and dishes and some vacuuming. more mental rearrangement of stuff in the apartment should i ever get the inkling to move stuff about again.
i also bought a new dress pattern last night during my excursion to Walmart and at least half the material for it. have to make a trip to joann's to get the rest. probably do that wednesday when i go with Him to find material for His new cape i said i'd make Him. i'll be the sewing goddess for a little bit again this year. seems that every october i'm sewing like a mad woman ;)
anywho, work is starting to infringe on my day so i'm off. this is certainly more than i've written in a few days at least.
toodles for now.
