10:03 a.m. - 2003-06-22
and today i feel... lazy!
i feel like writing. i've felt like it since i sat down at my computer this morning but i'm not completely sure what i want to write about. i suppose i'll give it a spin and see what dumps out.
the most recent agitation that is pushing me to write is that i was stupid enough to go back to nerve.com and read more of the feedback. it pisses me off. i was at least happy to see that someone else posted an opinion on the feedback section that is prettu much equivalent to mine. basically stating that Grant's articles display the curtesy and friendliness that was granted him above all of the vanilla-induced-reactions to the things he was seeing. bah! i truly think people just need to get a grip on themselves and realize that his stupid letters in no way effect their lives and that those types of things are just another part of being in the lifestyle and there's not a whole lot you can do about it. And ALSO the more you kick, moan and whine about it, the more people get interested and it will happen again... but somehow, i think i'm preaching to the choir so i'll put a cork in this subject yet again and try to control my urges to read that stupidity that just keeps piling up in the comments section.
we had eric and danielle over for dinner last night. they're fun. they have such an interesting relationship. they're almost like two high school kids when they're together, not in that sappy "i love you" "ooooh i love you too" kind of way but more in the horsing around with each other, picking on each other kind of way. it's cute. it works very well for them. they're good people.
while we were sitting around talking last night, i was studying danielle, as i'm prone to do people, and realized that she would be cool to do a photo shoot with too. there was some way that she moved and laid on the futon that reminded me of a picture i've seen a million times. i think she just has that 'classic' kind of look. long, full, dark hair and a well curved body. i'm, perhaps not so strangely, not really attracted to her thought, which is kind of nice. takes out that layer of complexity. i say not so strangely because it's an energy thing. she doesn't carry the sort of energy i feel i can connect with. and for that matter, she's not bi.
perhaps there's some sort of strange chemical explanation for that. perhaps we bisexual folks (this could apply in a similar way to lesbians and gays i suppose) emit hormones that are indiciative of our preferences. i'll admit that it's always been a wonder to me how gay men are able to find each other since most of them look just like regular guys (other than the flamboyant boys who are often far too easy to spot). maybe i'm onto something here. with women, i can see my theory not being too far fetched because of the pheromones studies. heh heh... women are just naturally more stinky in that way i suppose ;) alright, alright, stinky wasn't a good word to use but if you've done any reading on pheromones you get what i mean.
i took a left turn there... *steering back on track for a bit*
eric and danielle brought a mask down for me to use in the shoot with eric, or in general when i do my photos. it will definately be fun to use in the black and whites. it's a black leather sculptured mask. it's made by one of the women who vend at King Richard's Faire. Apparently it's a prototype so there's only one like this one, which is cool. it'll be fun to use. oh, i didn't mention that it was a blindfold-type mask, no eye holes... it's quite cool. i'll enjoy the use of it in my art.
anyway, that went well even though there's a fair amount of mess in the kitchen. we did manage to shove the majority of the dishes into the dishwasher last night. i don't think we put the gold trimmed dishes in there but i might... i'm frightened that it might make the gold peel away but i suppose it wouldn't be a huge loss... i'd just have to buy new dishes... wish i had kept the box long enough to see if they were dishwasher safe... oh well.
i'm restless today. antsy but lazy all in the same roll-up. i haven't showered yet... i already did my "circuit" on the web... so now that's boring. i could game, or chat more with Kristy since she's here now and somehow i think i'm destined to only see her online during the weekends. i'm trying -not- to read Harry Potter since we've been reading out loud to each other, which is a fun activity to me. i've been doing most of the reading because when we're in bed, he gets really loud and i'm always afraid the bitch upstairs is going to bitch again. stupid wench with her Hootie concerts in the middle of the damn night. but anyway...
maybe i'll work on web pages... today, i'm introspective enough that i could probably knock off some writings. maybe it would be fun to have some other people do some writing for my site too... that would be interesting. at least to me. have someone write mirror pieces to those i want to write. i should make a list of things to write about.... ahh plans... plans that will somehow go seriously astray...
i had to take a little hiatus from reading. Kristy called. apparently her computer has shit the bed again... ahh well, i tried to fix it but like i told her before, her hard drive's days were probably numbered. and indeed... it appears the number wasn't all that high. we'll make sure she gets hooked up though when she gets here. can't have her computerless forever and there's plenty of deals to be had around these parts. we'll make it work.
and of course... now that conversation has awaken my brain a little more, and i've eaten because somehow or another i was hungry as hell while i was on the phone with her... but suddenly i'm not feeling like writing anymore so maybe i'll go do something mind numbing like play D for a while and see how that goes. need to do a few more EQ runs so i can build up my gold supply... we're in hell and we're ramping up to defeat the ancients so... i'll be needing a lot of gold to revive my guy, not to mention how much i'll lose dying myself.... we've been getting cool equipment lately. seems like the luck comes and goes. we've cataloged our mules so we know what we have at all times. i'll have to update that again soon since we've picked up even more. fun fun fun!
toodles for now!
