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8:14 a.m. - 2002-10-17
some ramblings
ummm... yeah...

so today's lesson is: Tara should not get dressed when she's half awake.

i'll be taking a trip to the mall this morning! thank goodness it's like 5 minutes down the road...

i was feeling like black today, so i grabbed my fave black skirt, my black knee boots (i wish i could wear my bitch boots to work!) and a black shirt...

yeah... black shirt... except for the big brownish white BLEACH STAIN i put on it last time i did laundry!!! ARGH!

so, uh huh, didn't realize it until i got to work and saw my tummy... friggen A!

well, i was planning a trip to the mall for shoe shopping anyway i suppose this is a kick in the pants to go. i probably won't shop for shoes long this morning but i'll at least peek of course ;) need new winter shoes because the strappy sandle ones are just not going to cut it in the snow. most winter shoes are so... manly though.

I'VE BEEN WARPED INTO GIRLY-VILLE!!!! AARRRRGGGGHHH!

notice i didn't say "somebody help me". things could be worse, and besides, even when i wasn't in girly-ville i -hated- the shoes that women wear in the winter... they're like loafers and i despise that look. there's nothing at all feminine about a shoe that covers 80% of your foot. NOTHING. not to mention a lot of those shoes look like granny shoes.

i mean, seriously people, why does anyone want to wear a shoe that looks like what an eldery person would scuff around in at the nursing home? in fact, i know some elderly folks that have far more taste than that in shoes!

i guess some people would claim they look 'professional'... at which point i'd ask why people in your profession spend time looking at your shoes instead of the work your doing (a similar argument to the one i use to back up why i do not wear nylons to work)... if 'professional' means i have to look like a man and conform to the societal norm, i suppose i'd rather be "out there" and be an individual in the way i dress and present myself. i've almost always been an extremist, why should work be any different?

ahh well... no boss today or tomorrow. the man is actually taking days off! a miracle within itself. it is, of course, very quiet around here though since no one else has shown up yet. i actually got here on time today and there was no one here to appreciate it... heh... isn't that the way it ALWAYS works?

*ponders* not a whole lot to say really. my life hasn't been crazy enough to entertain anyone who reads this a whole lot. it's the same old thing really... i miss Him... A LOT sometimes, some days are better than others, last night i just moped and was lazy, watching buffy and Dawson's Creek and Birds of Prey, and when i went to bed i think the skunk or one of the feral cats was outside the window because there were all kinds of noises so i was all paranoid... especially since He had forgotten to lock the inside door again after doing laundry. i managed to fall asleep though.

He said i was restless in my sleep when He got home... i must have been having bad dreams... don't remember...

it's fall and i'm missing being out west a little. not anywhere specific out west but around here i haven't been able to find that place where the falling leaves have that crisp smell, and i haven't found anywhere to pick apples or attend stupid fall festivals that i'm starting to think only little towns have. i miss the craft fairs and oddly... raking leaves (of course i only miss this because i like jumping in them once they're all piled up... as long as they're dry that is). it's strange really... because i miss all the things i missed while i was in college, even though, compared to here Amherst had all those things... right down to the apple picking if we wanted to... i guess i just have time to miss some of the old stuff... it's weird.

it's also weird what i -don't- miss. but hey, i guess that's what time does to a person...

*sighs* in two weekends i'll probably head out that way, camera in hand, with Andrea... itching for some leaf peeping and possibly some photo opportunities in that area. i guess i've always loved the fall up here. i think it's the season i have the most pictures of. interesting season to like... a season where all the living things curl up and die

i'm going to miss trick or treaters... though, i'll be at a party probably being too social to remember to miss them :)

ahh life... full of various turns and twists...

always a new adventure, where am i going next?

 

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